Fuck it man. Who the hell cares at this point? All it is is just a bunch of random garbled thoughts put together that make absolutely no sense to anybody or poor attempts at humour.
What reason is there to come back to this website? Even if I did this shit regularly who the bloody hell cares about what I have to say? I have no fucking reach with this goddamn shit.
Like my website looks like fucking ass and isn't "aesthetic" like 95% of the popular sites on Neocities, and I don't even have any major reach my fucking self because it's not like anybody looks at anything else I do on YouTube or Letterboxd or Bluesky or whatever. I can write a lot or a tacit amount: doesn't matter, who cares? I'm in a blue ocean that will never be touched.
What's even the fucking point? There is no fucking point. I continue to not contribute anything at all to the wider web.
Even when I try to show other ways people can get in touch with me on this website nobody does shit. Like I don't even get fucking hate mail, like I that point I would have that iver nothing. I'd be escatic at this point if someone doxxed me because then I could actually have randos come into contact with me by then.
You know I've always wanted to actually do something with my YouTube, weite scripted content (thiugh I barely have th etime to), but then I realise that all of my ideas are fucking niche shit on game shows and anime and I will only reach the same amount of people I already do on my YouTube channel. Which is to say, barely anybody, unless if I steal content from other people.
So fucking what now? No, I'm not going to delete this blog or whatever, I'll just probably leave it up. Maybe I'll wirte something else. I am however just sort of annoyed. At myself, the world, and all that jazz